That moment whenever you feel like complete and utter shit?
I feel like trying to make my emotional self happy to keep myself sane is too hard right now.
I can't take any more of this. It's not working for me.
I've tried to relationships with my parents and whatever, and completely bombed a quiz last night waiting up for some stupid ass to text me that never did.
Don't tell someone you have feelings for them and then sit there and post your shit on a dating website. That's what I don't understand.
I'm really emotional, and people don't get that, evidently. I'm way too emotional for my own good that I just keep blowing up at everyone lately. I feel like I should be totally focused on what I do at school, etc., but I seriously can't keep myself motivated.

I need help. A lot of help, but I know that I won't get it.
I also hate whenever you think you're friends with someone, but you're really not and they talk shit on you, and whatever. The fact of the matter is, people keep telling me to make friends. It's not that I don't have friends... I just don't have friends that I DO things with, which is the kind of friends I need to keep me sane. I have no social life here other than the random interaction with the gentlemen that hold the door open for me, and the five words exchanged during that scenario.

BUT SERIOUSLY.
I HATE LIFE RIGHT NOW.
AND I HATE SCHOOL.
AND I CAN'T DO THIS.