So Lord only knows how many people can see me type this right now, since I picked a rather awkward spot at the SSC. There is most definitely a girl sitting next to me that looks like she’s tripping on out SOME kind of drug, because every time I look at her she gets weirded out. There’s also another girl sitting next to me who’s tutoring a football player, and you can seriously tell that she’s trying to get laid by him hardcore. Oh round tables, how I never liked you.

Anyway, school has been pretty stressful here lately and my procrastination isn’t helping any with my homework issues and such. We have to do our homework for my nutrition class online through this website that our book provides access codes for and such. Well, my lucky ass got the shit-end of the deal, and my access code “wasn’t valid” for that course ID. Yeah, FML right? I spent almost three hours last night talking to the people at Pearson (the company that provides this) waiting to just take a quiz. On top of that, I have two tests and a paper due next Wednesday. Apparently they love to put everything on the same day, and I know it’s not going to be like high school where “omg, I have so many tests in another subject that day!” would work.

Okay. I’m getting weirded out by this girl looking at me every two seconds.

My boy situation hasn’t improved at all, either. AT ALL. After seeing him, I don’t think it improved any of our situations. All we did was have sex, and that was that. We didn’t talk about anything, at all, and we pretty much just acted like we were together just merrily going on a date and such. And it sucks. Because I know that we aren’t together, and it just seems like he doesn’t want to be with me. It sucks a lot, because he acted so much different BEFORE he saw me, and now that he’s seen me it’s like I’m a delusional sea monster. That’s all I can think about, is getting him, pleasing him, wanting him to be mine, and whatever. I know he probably has some other girl, and it’s stupid to sit around thinking that he doesn’t. He’s not the type of person to generally just “be single” and he told me that. Sure, he said that the other bitch was just “to make me jealous” and while it worked, I’m pretty sure there’s someone else that he’s just hiding because he knows it’ll piss me off and he’s just waiting until I do something idiotic to tell me. So that HE doesn’t have to look like the “bad guy” whenever I did nothing and he just fucked me for shits and giggles. I’m sorry I’m not the perfect person that can ~please him, but I sure as fuck tried for 8 months. Also the fact that his rude-ass informed me that “I didn’t learn how to suck dick after 8 months.” That’s because I don’t like it, and I never did it. I’m sorry that I have a small mouth, and it’s fucking difficult to do without almost making myself puke all over that person’s privates.

On a different note, since that subject just seems to piss me off, my nephew bit his tongue. Sounds stupid, because everyone bites their tongue, right? No. His teeth went through his tongue, and he had to get stitches. He can’t talk, and it’s so fucking sad. It made me want to cry seeing him, and I absolutely hate how much I miss at home with my little baby growing up so fast.

I like listening to depressing songs , because it’s like my life depends on that right now.  That and sleep are the only things that are making me feel better right now. Why? I don’t know, but I sleep way more than the average person SHOULD lately, and it’s probably because I wake up randomly in the middle of the night for reasons left unknown, although I wish I knew why. I also wish I was like most people who’re like “OH LAST CLASS OF THE DAY” at twelve. Ugh, bitches. I’m hungry , and I don’t have time to walk back to a dining hall and walk all the way back across campus, so I stocked up with cereal bars in my backpack today. Lol. MLIA.