So in all complete honesty, I guess I’m just trying to be okay. By any means am I happy right now, and I have nothing that could possibly make me happy. Yeah, that sounds depressing from any point of view, but it’s so true. I have no idea what I’m doing here at this school. Trying to be successful should be anybody’s answer, but I have no idea what I want to do for life, so why would I try to be successful at something that I have no idea about? I feel sick to my stomach right now, and there’s nothing I can do about it. It makes me sick just being so tired and crying myself to sleep every night because I’m just not happy with my life. I wish I was, because life could be SO much worse from any perspective, and I just sound like a whiny little bitch, but it’s so true. Yes, the compilations of this have been brought on by me being dumped, quitting my job, and not being able to figure out, AT ALL, how to do my math homework. (Should I mention that I’m in the idiot math class? Because I find that a necessary point to add that I have no idea how to do idiot math.) I just want to sleep, and that’s all I really want to do right now. Since my roommates “studying” has brought her coming back to the room at 2 AM after I just cried my eyes out and felt like I literally wanted to die. I couldn’t breathe, and I could have given a care less as to if I could or not, because I’m unhappy.

Now it’s not like I’m deprived or anything, but I know that in the end, this college is going to break me. Just the fact that there are about 40 Macs in the vicinity that I’m in, I think, proves that it’s a place for rich people, or people that are “ethnic” because they’re here (almost for free) on scholarships, and yes, I KNOW THIS FOR A FACT. I’m not smart, by any means. I barely got by in high school, and I rarely studied (because I don’t know how to legitimately study that it would help me learn). But anyways, I don’t really know what else to type.

Aside from the fact that I feel like complete ass, I’m just unhappy with life. I’m unhappy with the way that things are going, and they don’t seem to be looking up anytime soon. I was already stressed out enough, and this is just piling onto the stress, and sometimes an overload of stress builds someone to their breaking point, and I’ve definitely hit mine.

(and whoever said that Macs don't have right-click is clearly an idiot since I JUST used it to copy and paste this bullshit since they don't have keyboard commands |:)