Monday, April 2, 2012
I rather enjoy doing things that are of my liking, and one of those is making random lists. I haven't been fond of it in past years, but this year, I feel like they describe myself to the best of extents. Here's my "me" list for 2012.. so far.1: I hate little bugs, and am terrified of how many I've consumed in my sleep and just by breathing.2: It just so happens that the day I tell a girl the only place I have stretch marks on is my boobs, I get a huge-ass one on my stomach... and I absolutely hate it. 3: There's a book I'm reading... rather, trying to read, that's really good. I just never have the time to read it.4: I want to make a collage of all the senior pictures I've gotten, but I'm afraid it'll be used as a dart board in the next 27 school days.5: My Twitter dashboard just went from 7 to 16 in two seconds. I clearly follow too many dumbasses.6: I absolutely love my boyfriend, but we have sex way too much.7: Music videos are my life.8: The only show that I want to watch is Pretty Little Liars. I will pay whoever to get that season. That show is life.9: I used to have a black iPhone, but got a white one because, according to my dad, I'm a racist.10: College is going to make me go broke (er than I already am.)11: In three months, I'll have baby tiger stripes. I'm terrified that I won't enjoy college, or I'll fail out, or broke-ify out. I'll miss my boyfriend WAY too much.12: That's why I'm scared for summer. He's leaving for basic, and I have to survive the entire summer with only letters from him.13: I would get married today if it were acceptable.14: I like to take ridiculous pictures that end up looking amazing, and posting them over & over & over. 15: I refuse to get the new Facebook timeline.16: I have two cake pop kits upstairs just waiting to be made. 17: I'm tired of those "LIKE FOR" or "LIKE IF" pictures on Facebook. Sorry, I feed the people in Africa when I try, I don't need pictures of random shit.18: I contradict myself and don't make sense a lot.19: My boyfriend's family is like my second family, and his little girl is the best chld ever officially today.20: I'm afraid that people won't like my prom dress and be all "you look ugly." ):21: I love my parents, and hate when they fight... it scares me for when I leave...22: Not to mention I will be coming home every weekend. Fuhh yeaaah..23: I need a summer job. After saying jobs were easy to find, I contradicted myself. Third jobs are terribly hard to find.24: There's acryllic nail still left on my fingernail from two months ago.25: I need dry shampoo, gas, and nail polish but am too lazy to get either at the current moment.26: I am guilty of reading a phrase and thinking "YOLO" after it. 27: I changed my PIN number to the year. #YOLO. ;).28: WE'RE ALL GOING TO DIE DECEMBER 21ST.29: I used to hate sucking dick, now I do it like it's my jobbb.30: ^ David Fisher would be so proud of me... that mother fucker.31: "Safe & Sound" by Taylor Swift is my absolute favorite song in the world.32: I pick my boyfriend up from school almost everyday. 33: I honestly don't know what I'd do without him. He's my best friend. 34: My foots falling asleep.35: I'm having surgery Thursday... after 27 sets of tubes and 2 reconstructions, one cochlear-similar, I really hope this is the last damage that has to be done to them. I'm tired of people calling me a "baby" for saying my ears hurt whenever they really don't understand. 36: I really want to be a social worker to help little kids... but we'll seeee
Friday, March 16, 2012
Being a person of utter and complete paranoia, the best has gotten to me lately. As I was driving this morning, reminiscing in the songs that have been popular throughout my life, I have begun to realize a lot of things.
1: I'm really insecure, and scared of anyone leaving me. (added with I'm paranoid--of cheating)
-This is probably due to the crap that has gone on in my life, beginning with my sister having a baby with a drug-dealer, and putting me in the middle of it. Then after seeing her get beaten while she was pregnant with her child, it made me hesitant. My sister never left her baby. Also, my other sister had been with the same guy almost six years. Little did she know, the entire time that they had been together, he had been cheating on her for four years with a girl that is a year older than I am. Disgusting? I know, but you can't really go back in time and get him arrested for having sex with a minor.
This leads me to another subject I have been extremely terrified to announce and be proud about publicly (until now. dundundun.)
Myyy boyfriend :).
Sure, I've been through several ups and downs with him in the past two months, but I never really understood the meaning of the word 'love' until now.
It sounds really cliche and lame, of course, but he makes me smile and makes the world a better place. Being anyone else in my relationships have never really given a crap or two about me, he actually does. He cares. He's the kind of guy that anyone would want, and whenever anyone asks why I like him, I could give you a million reasons why this boy COMPLETELY has my heart. So I'll start making a little list :).
1: His smile is completely adorable.
2: His laugh can make me laugh no matter how mad I am at him or anyone else.
3: He is the greatest daddy in the world.
4: I can fall asleep by myself on the floor, and wake up with a blanket and his arms around me.
5: I can be crying, boogers running out of my nose, and he'll wipe my tears and boogers away.
6: If we fight, and it upsets me to great extremes, he realizes that it hurt, and cares.
7: I can sing the song "crazier" because I can run and give him a hug, and he'll spin me around and give me a kiss.
8: I get butterflies just typing this. :)
9: We can cuddle. And he likes it.
10: I wouldn't ever think of kissing anyone else, because his are the best, and make everything better.
11: He takes me out to eat on actual dates (unlike anyone else has.)
12: He claims me to his friends, and kisses me in front of them.
13: At dances, he hugs me tight and tells me how much he loves me.
14: he walks me to my car--in the pouring rain, in the snow, etc.
15: He sings utterly ridiculous songs with me and to me.
16: He sends me poems, reminding me he loves me.
17: He sends me a good morning text every morning, even if he is off of school.
18: He claims me in public.
19: I have a pretty ring on my finger, because he loves me so much.
20: He doesn't "expect" anything, he cherishes it.
21: Even if he's an asshole, he'll make up for it later.
22: He sings cute songs to me, staring me straight in the eyes.
23: He holds me when I cry.
24: He goes to girly concerts with me.
25: He'll watch whatever movie I want to, even if he hates it.
26: We can joke around with each other .
27: He talks about the future.
28: Anytime anyone asks me what I see with him, I say I could get married today and be perfectly fine. He just smiles and says "me too."
29: He gets angry when I tell him how adorable he is, so he tells me the same thing.
30: My list could go on and on, but it's getting mushier, so I'll stop.
It's too cold in this classroom to even think any further, and I have forgotten to bring a jacket (today, of all days.) I also have to work the entire night, so exhaustion here I come! :(
1: I'm really insecure, and scared of anyone leaving me. (added with I'm paranoid--of cheating)
-This is probably due to the crap that has gone on in my life, beginning with my sister having a baby with a drug-dealer, and putting me in the middle of it. Then after seeing her get beaten while she was pregnant with her child, it made me hesitant. My sister never left her baby. Also, my other sister had been with the same guy almost six years. Little did she know, the entire time that they had been together, he had been cheating on her for four years with a girl that is a year older than I am. Disgusting? I know, but you can't really go back in time and get him arrested for having sex with a minor.
This leads me to another subject I have been extremely terrified to announce and be proud about publicly (until now. dundundun.)
Myyy boyfriend :).
Sure, I've been through several ups and downs with him in the past two months, but I never really understood the meaning of the word 'love' until now.
It sounds really cliche and lame, of course, but he makes me smile and makes the world a better place. Being anyone else in my relationships have never really given a crap or two about me, he actually does. He cares. He's the kind of guy that anyone would want, and whenever anyone asks why I like him, I could give you a million reasons why this boy COMPLETELY has my heart. So I'll start making a little list :).
1: His smile is completely adorable.
2: His laugh can make me laugh no matter how mad I am at him or anyone else.
3: He is the greatest daddy in the world.
4: I can fall asleep by myself on the floor, and wake up with a blanket and his arms around me.
5: I can be crying, boogers running out of my nose, and he'll wipe my tears and boogers away.
6: If we fight, and it upsets me to great extremes, he realizes that it hurt, and cares.
7: I can sing the song "crazier" because I can run and give him a hug, and he'll spin me around and give me a kiss.
8: I get butterflies just typing this. :)
9: We can cuddle. And he likes it.
10: I wouldn't ever think of kissing anyone else, because his are the best, and make everything better.
11: He takes me out to eat on actual dates (unlike anyone else has.)
12: He claims me to his friends, and kisses me in front of them.
13: At dances, he hugs me tight and tells me how much he loves me.
14: he walks me to my car--in the pouring rain, in the snow, etc.
15: He sings utterly ridiculous songs with me and to me.
16: He sends me poems, reminding me he loves me.
17: He sends me a good morning text every morning, even if he is off of school.
18: He claims me in public.
19: I have a pretty ring on my finger, because he loves me so much.
20: He doesn't "expect" anything, he cherishes it.
21: Even if he's an asshole, he'll make up for it later.
22: He sings cute songs to me, staring me straight in the eyes.
23: He holds me when I cry.
24: He goes to girly concerts with me.
25: He'll watch whatever movie I want to, even if he hates it.
26: We can joke around with each other .
27: He talks about the future.
28: Anytime anyone asks me what I see with him, I say I could get married today and be perfectly fine. He just smiles and says "me too."
29: He gets angry when I tell him how adorable he is, so he tells me the same thing.
30: My list could go on and on, but it's getting mushier, so I'll stop.
It's too cold in this classroom to even think any further, and I have forgotten to bring a jacket (today, of all days.) I also have to work the entire night, so exhaustion here I come! :(
Friday, February 10, 2012
I thought this week was going to be the worst week of my life. Although I did not attend school on Tuesday, except for an hour, it wasn't that bad. It was actually kind of fun though dressing up isn't really my thing. I dressed up for "twin day" and "blue and white day." And of course I was going to dress up for the last one because EVERYONE does.
We did something new this year. We had "homecoming olympics" which consisted of people from our class being in specific events throughout the day. The first day, we took some survey, the second day we began decorating a sheet (which was SO badass), the third day we began decorating a doorway in our school, the fourth day we began decorating a "float" (aka, shopping cart) and the fifth and final day, we had a parade throughout the hallways with classmates pushing our "floats" and the senior class following behind. Might I say that this afternoon was probably the funnest thing I've ever done in my life. I held hands, blindfolded and lost with a girl that absolutely hates me, and we kind of supported each other along the way, I watched the most hilarious dance-off of my life, I won't have a voice on Monday to do my speech for class, and it continues again in thirty minutes...as soon as my butt gets out of this chair from work. :)
Another thing that I oddly learned is that one of our substitutes and my sisters' former classmate will be working with me at this job in little to no time. Not only do I find it ironic, but I find it kind of cool that three people that attended my school now work here. WHOOT FOR SCHOOL TRADITIONS.
I feel like I'm about to get carpal tunnel just writing this because one of my wrists is so much higher than the other. I'm sitting like an idiot dressed like a bundle of sticks with my leggings and soffee shorts. As the teacher I tutor for said this morning "she's wearing short ass shorts and her legs are black!"
No matter how much I keep saying I want to graduate, days like today make me not want to. It's still taking me a long time to grasp the fact that this is the last homecoming I will ever participate in, tomorrow is the last homecoming dance I will attend, and tonight is the last homecoming game that I will scream my lungs out at. Thank goodness I rekindled some of what I had with the best person that's ever been in my life, so I can see him play his heart out tonight. <3
Also, I'm listening to a 90's mix on Pandora to reminisce my memories. I don't wanna find another lover, more precious than you, precious than you :).
We did something new this year. We had "homecoming olympics" which consisted of people from our class being in specific events throughout the day. The first day, we took some survey, the second day we began decorating a sheet (which was SO badass), the third day we began decorating a doorway in our school, the fourth day we began decorating a "float" (aka, shopping cart) and the fifth and final day, we had a parade throughout the hallways with classmates pushing our "floats" and the senior class following behind. Might I say that this afternoon was probably the funnest thing I've ever done in my life. I held hands, blindfolded and lost with a girl that absolutely hates me, and we kind of supported each other along the way, I watched the most hilarious dance-off of my life, I won't have a voice on Monday to do my speech for class, and it continues again in thirty minutes...as soon as my butt gets out of this chair from work. :)
Another thing that I oddly learned is that one of our substitutes and my sisters' former classmate will be working with me at this job in little to no time. Not only do I find it ironic, but I find it kind of cool that three people that attended my school now work here. WHOOT FOR SCHOOL TRADITIONS.
I feel like I'm about to get carpal tunnel just writing this because one of my wrists is so much higher than the other. I'm sitting like an idiot dressed like a bundle of sticks with my leggings and soffee shorts. As the teacher I tutor for said this morning "she's wearing short ass shorts and her legs are black!"
No matter how much I keep saying I want to graduate, days like today make me not want to. It's still taking me a long time to grasp the fact that this is the last homecoming I will ever participate in, tomorrow is the last homecoming dance I will attend, and tonight is the last homecoming game that I will scream my lungs out at. Thank goodness I rekindled some of what I had with the best person that's ever been in my life, so I can see him play his heart out tonight. <3
Also, I'm listening to a 90's mix on Pandora to reminisce my memories. I don't wanna find another lover, more precious than you, precious than you :).
Monday, February 6, 2012
So I'm pretty sure that today is probably the start of one of the most pathetic weeks of life. It is homecoming week. I should be all excited like most of the people in my grade, but I'm not. Our homecoming is "jungle themed" and the days this week have nothing to do with it.
I'm sick and tired of this boy in my class. Every time he talks, I want to put duck tape over his mouth. He thinks he sounds cool, when in reality, he has the biggest lisp that any person could have. Ugh.
Secondly, we're planning to decorate our hallway like it's a memorial to our entire school years...when it's going to be up there for an accumulation of three days, and then get ripped down by stupid freshmen, most likely.
Also, I'm tired of hearing little kids talking about how they had sex with this girl this weekend, and then this girl the weekend after that. I mean, I was stupid as a sophomore, but I sure as heck didn't announce it to my entire desktop publishing class. Also, I had the class not to announce it to the world that I spread my legs open every other weekend.
School is stupid, and I'm done with it, and the people in it. I cannot wait until Maaayyy.
I'm sick and tired of this boy in my class. Every time he talks, I want to put duck tape over his mouth. He thinks he sounds cool, when in reality, he has the biggest lisp that any person could have. Ugh.
Secondly, we're planning to decorate our hallway like it's a memorial to our entire school years...when it's going to be up there for an accumulation of three days, and then get ripped down by stupid freshmen, most likely.
Also, I'm tired of hearing little kids talking about how they had sex with this girl this weekend, and then this girl the weekend after that. I mean, I was stupid as a sophomore, but I sure as heck didn't announce it to my entire desktop publishing class. Also, I had the class not to announce it to the world that I spread my legs open every other weekend.
School is stupid, and I'm done with it, and the people in it. I cannot wait until Maaayyy.
Friday, January 6, 2012
I don't know if I should be happy or sad at the current moment. Sometimes I'm happy, but most of the time I worry too much for my own good to be happy. LIKE RIGHT NOW.
School has been horrendous the past couple of days. I have two legitimate classes: Choir and Yearbook. Every other class I have either hasn't started, or is only three days a week. This leaves me a TON of time to get used to my lovely classmates after I just forgot how wonderful they were over Christmas break--not.
So after getting over the miserableness of school and only being there for half of the day, everyday but today, I've had other things to entertain me. Yesterday was a Thursday (which are shitty at school, anyways) and I left at 12 to go watch my little nephew. He fell asleep on me right after his mommy left at about 12:30, and she didn't come back until 3, in which he had just woke up. It was a great, MUCH NEEDED nap, to say the least.
After I took my amazing little nap right there...I went to work. I saw more cute little children at work since the owner had her grandkids in here. One of them was a little shy because she hates people, but the other was this adorable little child who I admire a lot. After I got off of work, I went to go to my boyfriend's house in which I was instructed to "hurry up because dinner was almost ready." OF COURSE I thought his dad was cooking like last time, but whenever I walked through the door, he was running around the kitchen freaking out if something was overcooked or not. It was so cute. It made him look like a little house daddy. Although, I guess he IS a daddy, so I can't really say anything along those lines.
The night ended with me crying, him crying, and all this stupid stuff because of some stupid girl. He held me while I cried, and it just made me fall even more. But right now, and I guess my worrying is getting the best of me, I feel all worthless and useless. BUT OF COURSE, every person has to go without talking to their boyfriend/girlfriend/lover every once in awhile. So I'm sucking it up because I know he's not like that...or I'm hoping he isn't like that. He always says he isn't...but whenever he gave me his Facebook password, of course that gave me the right to snoop ;).
School has been horrendous the past couple of days. I have two legitimate classes: Choir and Yearbook. Every other class I have either hasn't started, or is only three days a week. This leaves me a TON of time to get used to my lovely classmates after I just forgot how wonderful they were over Christmas break--not.
So after getting over the miserableness of school and only being there for half of the day, everyday but today, I've had other things to entertain me. Yesterday was a Thursday (which are shitty at school, anyways) and I left at 12 to go watch my little nephew. He fell asleep on me right after his mommy left at about 12:30, and she didn't come back until 3, in which he had just woke up. It was a great, MUCH NEEDED nap, to say the least.
After I took my amazing little nap right there...I went to work. I saw more cute little children at work since the owner had her grandkids in here. One of them was a little shy because she hates people, but the other was this adorable little child who I admire a lot. After I got off of work, I went to go to my boyfriend's house in which I was instructed to "hurry up because dinner was almost ready." OF COURSE I thought his dad was cooking like last time, but whenever I walked through the door, he was running around the kitchen freaking out if something was overcooked or not. It was so cute. It made him look like a little house daddy. Although, I guess he IS a daddy, so I can't really say anything along those lines.
The night ended with me crying, him crying, and all this stupid stuff because of some stupid girl. He held me while I cried, and it just made me fall even more. But right now, and I guess my worrying is getting the best of me, I feel all worthless and useless. BUT OF COURSE, every person has to go without talking to their boyfriend/girlfriend/lover every once in awhile. So I'm sucking it up because I know he's not like that...or I'm hoping he isn't like that. He always says he isn't...but whenever he gave me his Facebook password, of course that gave me the right to snoop ;).
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
At times, I really don't want to be here. It's crazy ridiculous how I'm told that I "have" to go to school because my school gets money. Whenever the only thing I do for two weeks, five hours a day, I do nothing but sit on my butt, listening to people talk about their sex lives.
I'd be perfectly fine with this if it hadn't been the same girl that said "you're a whore if you've slept with more than one person," two weeks before. (because frankly, sometimes people need to get it out.) Hypocritical people just make the world up, don't they? Stupid.
Also, another thing I've been utterly annoyed with lately, is people being obsessed with the person they "like" or are "with." That's cool if you love your boyfriend, but that doesn't mean you have to say something about it every five minutes...or that's the only thing you talk about period. OR you have a boyfriend, and like someone else. That's just ridiculous. There are few people in my school that I can tolerate, and the ones I can tolerate are beginning to do this.
Adding to the list are immature children. If you are fifteen and are dating an eighteen year old, you need to realize that you cannot provide with that person if they have a kid.
I'd be perfectly fine with this if it hadn't been the same girl that said "you're a whore if you've slept with more than one person," two weeks before. (because frankly, sometimes people need to get it out.) Hypocritical people just make the world up, don't they? Stupid.
Also, another thing I've been utterly annoyed with lately, is people being obsessed with the person they "like" or are "with." That's cool if you love your boyfriend, but that doesn't mean you have to say something about it every five minutes...or that's the only thing you talk about period. OR you have a boyfriend, and like someone else. That's just ridiculous. There are few people in my school that I can tolerate, and the ones I can tolerate are beginning to do this.
Adding to the list are immature children. If you are fifteen and are dating an eighteen year old, you need to realize that you cannot provide with that person if they have a kid.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
So as of right now. I'm kind of scared.
The people in my office are at a Christmas party, and like every job, someone has to "man down the fort." I'm just so lucky, that I get to be that person.
Now I'd probably consider it an honor and be perfectly fine with it...iiiif they hadn't gotten robbed within the past couple of weeks. Of course, it wasn't anything really major (which probably isn't one of the brightest things to say) and they broke the door. Hopeully nobody really knows, because I feel ike a seceretary today, and I'm pretty okay with it.
The only problem that I have is that the UPS man is downstairs just walking around in circles...
The people in my office are at a Christmas party, and like every job, someone has to "man down the fort." I'm just so lucky, that I get to be that person.
Now I'd probably consider it an honor and be perfectly fine with it...iiiif they hadn't gotten robbed within the past couple of weeks. Of course, it wasn't anything really major (which probably isn't one of the brightest things to say) and they broke the door. Hopeully nobody really knows, because I feel ike a seceretary today, and I'm pretty okay with it.
The only problem that I have is that the UPS man is downstairs just walking around in circles...
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